I know what I wanna do for the rest of my life.
But I am afraid of embracing this because of the uncertainty and difficulty
that come along with this choice. I know the risks and all I’m going to lose
(and win) if I make up my mind right now, and that’s the reason this decision
is so hard. Even when I don’t want to, I think about the people who believe in
me and support my career in journalism. But I don’t wanna be a journalist. I wanna
dance. Forever. Unfortunately it’s something that’s considerated by many as a
not-so-much good job. And it is. It’s not a well-payed job in this country and
sometimes people dare to say it’s not even a job. That’s the sad reality of
Brazil. But even knowing all these things, there’s nothing in life that ever
made me feel the way I feel whenever I dance (well, maybe singing, but my voice
is really bad for that). And just the thought of doing this for the rest of my
life just makes me feel right. And that’s the feeling I wanna have in me until
my heart stops beating. That’s amazing. But
am I brave enough? Do I have the guts to change my life and focus on dancing? Am
I really strong to maybe hurt some people I love? I keep doubting myself and I’m
still in the same place.
